I have been taking antidepressants for about 1.5 years now. "Citalopram", specifically. It does nothing to remove my depression, but it seems to help with anxiety. That's all I really want. Anyway. I spaced taking a pill yesterday. After roughly 30 hours I begin to get withdrawal symptoms while my brain chemistry decides that being stable is no longer fun.
Withdrawal symptoms may include: hazy mind, headache, feeling faint, and feeling like you are dreaming. While in this state I refer to myself as "not existing" simply because everything feels like a fever dream. I move my head too quickly and I drop to 0% brainpower for half a second. Once I stop moving, I am nearly back to normal. The sensation is unpleasant, to say the least.
There is some confusion, though, on the origin of this feeling. The reason I began taking the medication was for precisely the same symptoms that I get during withdrawals. I felt floaty, disconnected, and felt as if I could pass out at any moment. Doctors figured it was an anxiety attack. Honestly, I have no idea what it was. I just wanted it gone. Maybe these meds are holding those problems at bay, and the feelings are not withdrawals.
In either case I have to take my antidepressants every night to exist. If I miss one night, I turn into an astronaut the next day. Luckily the pills are essentially free. My existence costs 15 cents a day. How about yours?
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